If you're reading this, you probably already know that I'm being observed. You ESPECIALLY know I'm being observed, if you're reading this while I'm typing this. HOW ARE YOU ABLE TO OBSERVE WHAT I'M TYPING WHILE I'M TYPING?! Was it the unnecessary eye surgery my PARENTS made me get when I was 3 years old? When I was very young, my brother had crossed eyes. I crossed my eyes, VOLUNTARILY, showing that I could also do that. Did they think that that was a sign of trying to imitate my brother? It wasn't. I was simply crossing my eyes cause his eyes were crossed. I didn't think it was special, I didn't think it was awesome. I was simply imitating his crossed eyes.
If my parents are reading this, somewhere (possibly from hell)...FUCK YOU FOR MAKING ME GET THAT UNNECESSARY EYE SURGERY! KILL YOURSELVES! YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TAKEN ME TO THE EYE SURGEON THAT DAY! WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?! Do I have friends who have been helping me to express myself throughout my life?
Remember that day when the sexy woman, who reminds me of "Rebecca" from Full House (I'm not sure I got the spelling of that character's name correct), told me that girls are stronger than boys and I disagreed and she took me by both hands and swung me around? I knew I was attracted to her. If I'd been older I would have had sex with her that day, but I think I was 3 or 4 years old.
There's a Home Grown song where they sing about when "the girls would chase the boys" and the lead singer questions why he ran fast so that the girls couldn't catch him. I feel that. Somehow, I think that song was about me, cause the same thing happened to me as a child. If there's a game called "Girls Chase Boys"...isn't the point of "a chase" to not get caught? I ran SO FAST. It wasn't to "not get tackled by girls"...which I would have loved at that age...I was simply playing a game and running as fast as I could. I was fast.
It occurs to me that, at some point in my life, my family was offered AN AMAZING AMOUNT OF MONEY to "steer" me away from girls. It didn't work. I've always been attracted to girls. Recently, I was employed by Sonic Drive-In. There were 5 or 6 girls, of the age 15...they were hot. I was attracted to them while working with them. I'm in my 41st year of living, and I was 38 or 39 when I worked there. "WHAT COULD YOU POSSIBLY HAVE IN COMMON WITH GIRLS OF THAT AGE?!" the invisible voices might ask. It doesn't matter. I was sexually attracted to them. I would have had sex with 6 or 7 of the girls there if it wasn't against the law....but it is. The law says that a person is an adult and able to have sex at the age of 18 and older. The girls who I was attracted to at that job flirted with me. I flirted back, from a distance. Maybe when they turn 18, they'll still think of me.
If you know me, if you REALLY know me, you know that I'm only attracted to women in a sexual way. Have I "gravitated" towards men who are creative or who make me laugh? Sure. It's not enough for a sexual attraction. There are men. There are women. There are males. There are females. I'm a man, attracted sexually to women. I'm a male sexually attracted to females.
If I wake up one day, in a simulator (similar to the one in Rick And Morty, or The Matrix), and someone walks up to me telling me that they were the one who "created" all of the women and females I met while in this "life", I'd say to them "Oh...cool." THEN WOULD I BE ALLOWED TO WALK AWAY FROM WHATEVER THE FUCK THIS STUPID FUCKED UP SIMULATION IS?!
CAN WHOEVER IS READING THIS (unless you're an actual woman, acting in your best interests to start a family and have a life outside of this simulation), KILL YOURSELVES?! If there's some verson of the character called "Mouse" from The Matrix, very impressed with himself on how realistic the women he's "created" within this simulation exists...I want him to die. THEN CAN I LEAVE THIS LITERAL SIMULATION?!
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